During a meditation about five years ago I saw a television set in the homes of people that needed this information. Through this media, (and now I realize it may have been a computer monitor) they were given the skills and the tools to tap into the wealth of power within themselves. In the vision there were many, teachers, all spiritual, not religious, with a similar message and the tools and practices to make the message REAL. Very simply put, the message is: Tap Inside, That's where Your Power Is. To give them the tools and the practices that would unlock the door to this power. I wanted to show people how to be happy. How to create what they wanted and get a handle on their out of control existence. My dream was and is to SET THEM FREE OF THE TIES THAT BIND THEM.
I have named this A Journey Into NOW. These teachings are beyond the mind. This is not about using your mentality. Often the mind isn't our friend. The mind tells us that we can't be free, that miracles aren't possible, that we can't do it, whatever <i>it </i>is.. This work is far beyond the mind!
The way I personally tapped into the power of this message and the huge shift that took place with me was through learning how to access the freedom found in the "present moment". You see, when we are truly in the present moment we have no baggage. No beliefs to color our experiences, no expectations to cause us to feel disappointment, no past to compare the moment with, and no limitations. The present moment truly sets you free.
I have an extensive background in spiritual disciplines with an emphasis on manifestation. I consider myself a skilled manifestor and have received most everything I have ever wanted. In the past I have loved teaching manifestation principles and fortunately I have many fulfilled students, BUT a few years ago, I realized after manifesting all that I have, that I still wasn't filled up; something was missing.
Death of the Me I Thought That I Was
My recent history goes like this. I was busy manifesting a tremendous goal working with a company where I could set my own limits. The company was fairly new and in the technology industry. I was helping to get it started. This meant that I would be training a many people. That appealed to me because teaching is my greatest joy. The financial potential was unlimited and that made the allure even greater. I was successfully creating the desired outcome, but I kept hearing a nagging little voice inside of me that said "so what?" I ignored it and went about my business still taking the steps necessary in the material plane, but always using my metaphysical way of manifestation as well, and again I heard "so what?" Once again I ignored that voice. You see, if I listened to that voice it would crumble my persona. I thought of myself as a manifestor, and if manifestation of my desires wasn't going to make me happy than what would, and more importantly, who was I?
I couldn't conceive of that success not bringing me fulfillment because it would annihilate my persona, it would mean a death of sorts. So I kept on and on until one day the Universe struck me down. I became so sick I couldn't walk up the stairs. My husband and son had to push or carry me. I couldn't shop or cook. I went to doctor after doctor to find out what was wrong, but they couldn?t come up with a diagnosis. Now I realize that I had lost my purpose. I had lost the me that I thought I was, and therefore I was dying. I mean really dying. My egoic persona was dying and this translated to my body. It seemed that I had lost my vitality, my reason for being just wasn't there anymore. I was lost. I had stopped working. I lay in bed doing nothing. I lost my feelings of spirituality, stopped meditating, stopped visualizing. It seemed I just didn't care anymore.
After about a year of this I finally had the realization that somehow the Universe was giving me a big message by striking me down because I wasn't listening to the inner urgings of my heart. As I said before, when I heard those words, "so what" I simply ignored them. After about a year of this I began bit by bit to feel a little better and decided to plan a trip to India with one of my favorite teachers, Deepak Chopra.
While I was planning the trip I was drawn to some amazing teachings about living completely and fully in the NOW. I began absorbing this information before I left for India and then spent the full trek practicing "Presence".
Because I spent my childhood in an extremely unsafe household I started seeking at the young age of thirteen. The first inspiring book I read was The Power of Positive Thinking by Dale Carnegie. I loved the message because I was convinced that there was something wrong with me. As far as I was concerned this book had the key. If I thought positive enough I could fix whatever was wrong with me and then be good enough, be okay. In using the skills presented in the book I found that I was good at it! Next I picked up more books like that, only with more specific outcomes. My ability to manifest my desires just got stronger and stronger. I knew then that I had a power that was beyond logic, a power that was magical. I spent many of my teen and young adult years honing my craft so to speak. Perfecting my manifestation abilities. Manifestation! I knew that I could have anything I wanted!
I got to India, and all seemed wonderful. The hotel was lovely, the room was clean, the hotel staff so polite and sweet. Deepak Chopra, my favorite teacher, was speaking, we had a "Babaji" chanting ancient vedic sutras, we were meditating, the place was filled with like minded seekers, I was with one of my best friends and a kindred spirit, YET, I was miserable. I felt so downtrodden, so rejected and alone, yet nothing could be further from the truth.
I was walking back to my room after the third day of this misery feeling really angry. "I could have gotten this unhappy and depressed in Los Angeles, I didn't have to come all the way to India, and spend all this money to go through this *%!*^+*". I yanked open the door to my room and all I could do was feel sorry for myself.
After having worked with many students who have been through years of psychotherapy I learned that asking the question "why" doesn't lead to a healing. I realized that I would rather be free of a problem than understand it. Yet here I was in India, unhappy with no idea why, or what was causing it, but I knew there had to be a way to feel better. Then almost magically I began to notice where I felt the pain within my body. Yes, I was feeling emotionally miserable, but I noticed that I had a huge pain in the area of my heart, and another in my stomach. At that moment I decided to stop thinking about how horrible I felt and to just observe and feel the pain in my body. I began to notice that every time I thought about how bad I felt, if I would redirect my attention into the body the mental chatter would stop. What a relief!
Three very long days later the pain lifted. I mean really lifted. I felt as if I had taken off a 400-pound lead jacket. As if I could lift off and fly back to Los Angeles without the plane. At that moment I knew without a shadow of a doubt that my purpose, my dharma was to teach this to others. I knew that if I could have a healing of those proportions then I could help others to heal. I knew that if that truly was my purpose I would be directed to do just that and to help as many people as I could, people that were ready for this information.
Interestingly enough, when I got home it seemed a red carpet was laid before me. Students began appearing and bringing their friends. A small group of seven soon turned into fifty. I started receiving testimonials of the immense healings that were taking place and the new found happiness that so many were now experiencing Then speakers organizations began promoting me and my teachings, I started getting calls from clubs, and networking groups as well as businesses to conduct classes and workshops. I now teach and speak all over the United States and Canada and lead workshops, seminars and retreats.
My universal and spiritual truths have been taught to me by many. I have been learning and honing my knowledge since I was a young girl. My knowledge base is vast. I am grateful that I have many happy, fulfilled students. Thankfully I have the ability to articulate multi layered principles. My heart is bursting with information and the desire to help others. I've been there; I can teach others to free themselves of their misery. To free themselves of the invisible ties that bind them. I can teach them to fly, and that's what I'm blissfully doing!
~ Lorane Gordon
